That day, I could not concentrate at work. I kept refreshing my google search app with the keyword “US 2016 Election Results”. My stomach felt funny whenever I saw the result that Donald Trump was leading. In between work and meetings, I somehow managed to refresh my app every once in a while. I exchanged messages with R. He started hopeful, but we both were deeply shocked when our google search showed “Donald Trump won the presidency”.
Believe it or not, tears were falling down my eyes. Lucky it was around lunchtime and I had lunch at my desk while everybody else on my team was out. So no one noticed.
Then I continued my day. When I woke up the next morning, I felt funny. Like waking up from a bad dream, really. “Did it happen?” I thought. Yes, it did. I talked to R and he too felt the same way when waking up the next morning. Something felt not right.
I was kind of confused. I mean I am not a citizen nor did I live there, so why the emotions?
I thought it was just because I was too overwhelmed with the news. Or maybe it was the hormones (lol), or maybe I was exaggerating.
It took me awhile to realise why.
I was sad and felt hollow because I found it hard to believe that someone with such character can be Mr. No.1 in the US.
Let’s not talk about politics here. But let’s just talk about character and personality. How can someone that says things uncensored, says mean things about other people, especially minorities and women (and I don’t want to even start with the actions that he’s done)… can be a president?
What kind of example are we setting the younger generation? That the bully can win? That you can say basically anything without thinking about other people’s feelings or how it may provokes bad actions? It makes me so, so, sad.
And as a young couple that are just planning to build a life together, at first me and R was nervous. We felt uncertain. But then R made a good point. He said what’s done is done. What we can do now is to accept democracy, keep an open mind (like Bernie Sanders said), and pray.
Let’s pray for a peaceful and united America. More importantly, let’s pray for a peaceful and safe world.
I know it does not sound too promising these days… but let’s not lose faith. Let’s love and let love wins! xx